Today in my Moksha Yoga class, the teacher read a short piece about forgiving others and yourself. It talked about how often what we resent or criticize in others, if something that is reflected in ourselves. I thought this was a very pertinent thing for me right now. I have a class mate that was quite close with last year and over the past few months we have drifted to the point that it feels awkward and tense when we are around each other. There are things about her that, when I got to know her better, I didn’t really like, and so I maybe started to distance myself. We probably each changed in different ways, and not in compatible ways.
I’ve recently realised that, although I don’t think our friendship will be saved, it needs to be better between us that we can be friendly and act like the peers that we are. The meditative part of yoga has been good mentally for me to let go of grudges or resentfulness and realise that I am wasting too much energy on things beyond my control. And at this point in my life, I don’t have that kind of energy to spare.
So that’s a quick synopsis of my mental space right now. Other than that, I’ve done yoga three times this week, so far. My weight is going up and down by a pound, maybe influenced more by water loss than actual fat loss. However, after my Monday class, I woke up Tuesday feeling more toned and svelte in the stomach area, so got some added motivation from that. I think, though, if I really want to start losing real weight, I’m going to have to add the gym or running to my workouts. It’s too easy to think, because I’m sweating so much, that I’m really burning calories in hot yoga, but it’s a false sense of cardio.
I’ve calculated I have 75 days until I leave for my first friend’s wedding event, so I need to step it up if I want to go proud of the body I’ve been working hard to get!!
